My meditation

I've drawn and painted since I can remember, I know it's a cliche, but it has always been my place to escape. In kindergarden I would sit for hours and just draw, it was my favorite thing to do. When I was twelve I started to draw celebrities (should've had Instagram back then!). Then I discovered watercolors and I painted everything I could see from my window. Then there was the angels - I drew them in pencil and in red and black charcoal. Same with torsos - my mom has two large pictures in the living room. Then I started fashion school and I had to draw ladies of course - or figurines as it's called in fashion. And I loved it. I would sit all night long drawing figurines. But then I got tired of my controlled expression, I just couldn't find a way to draw that I really liked - before I tried drawing with my left hand. That was a total new experience and so much more spontaneous. Scary and uncomfortable yes, but also a sense of freedom because it couldn't be perfect anyway. 
It requires courage and always when I start a new drawing I have to be fearless - I can't think because then I'll fuck it up. And that's what I love - the absolute surrender as if I'm possessed. I don't really have any control over my hand (not like I have with my right hand anyway) I'm just doing, but the tricky part is when I start to think and try to control my hand - as I very often do. It is really like meditation. The drawings and paintings where I've managed to just let it flow are the best ones. I should say that I paint with my right hand, but always sketch up using my left. 

These pictures was very spontaneous - it just came over me. 
I'm launching prints in the webshop on monday with a special opening offer so stay tuned!